Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Disaster Relief (Part Two)
After lunch, Katie and I left the community center to join Dana and Allen, who were helping an elderly woman toss out things that had been ruined by the flood. Once we finished there we checked in with the Southern Baptist Disaster Relief team; they had previously mentioned to the guys that they might have a few jobs they could use our help on. We ended up driving around for a while until we found the right road, but we eventually made it. We cleaned out a basement and then moved on to help clean out an elderly woman's house next door.
Cleaning out Barbara's house was hard. From what I could gather, she is pretty much on her own. She has one neighbor (her tenant actually) who checks in on her, but other than that her family has pretty much abandoned her. What complicated matters more is that Barbara is a pack-rat. She has saved almost everything - including trash.
As we sorted through the damage, we found many things that had to be tossed - basically everything that was on the floor needed to be thrown away. I can't even imagine what it would be like to be a victim of a flood (or any natural disaster), but, on top of that, to have to sit and watch as strangers came through your house and just threw all of your stuff away...it must be awful. Anything and everything that was salvageable she wanted saved - even if it really wasn't worth saving.
To look at her you could tell that she was on the edge between having hope and feeling hopeless. Pain and fear were written on her face and in her body language. All she could do was stroke the kitten that she and her neighbor had rescued from the flood.
There was a part of me that wanted to talk to her - to hear her stories and to ask her how she was doing. But I just couldn't. Meeting people has never been my strongsuit, but it was more than that; I think I was scared of the answers. Scared of getting drawn into a life that I knew I would, likely, never see again. As I have talked with other volunteers, especially those that work with distressed populations more often, I have been told there are two possibilities: either you go crazy trying to take on the pain of the world, or you learn to disconnect yourself somehow. I guess I can see the truth in that, but isn't there someway to find a balance for it all?
Monday, May 18, 2009
Disaster Relief (Part One)
My job was to help squeegee the floors. The work wasn't hard and luckily I had ended up with a really good squeegee, so I could get a lot of work done. Unfortunately, however, not all of the other squeegees worked as well, so one of the other volunteers kept asking to borrow it. Now this really should not have been a big deal - it wasn't my squeegee anyway, and we were all working toward the same goal. But for some reason it really bothered me. I wanted to get a lot of work done and to feel useful. Using the other squeegee, I couldn't accomplish either of those two goals. I am ashamed to admit that it was quite the struggle at first for me to have a good attitude about this. Here I was, trying to help others, and all I could think about was how much work I was doing. How pathetic is that? I started praying that I would have an attitude change, and thankfully, as the work continued I was able to let go of my desire to prove myself (I think a large part of this was just wanting to feel useful - the day before we had had two students come to the center and I felt like I had wasted my entire day; so the idea of actually working was very appealing).
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
A Quick Hello to Seattle, Portland, and the I-5 Corridor
- Going to Cedars for lunch with four wonderful friends and enjoying some amazing Indian cuisine
- Seeing real mountains (the Appalachians aren't really mountains - they are just big hills)
- Making pies with my mom
- Standing under our blooming lilac tree and breathing in my favorite scent
- Cutting the aforesaid lilacs and packing them back to Kentucky to show a few people what lilacs are
- Kind of forgetting it was Mother's Day, and not wishing my mom a happy day until after my friend April did
- Seeing friends and family
- Flying over Mount Rainier, as it rose above a layer of clouds, as I left Seattle
It was especially nice to come out and visit, since I will probably not be in the Northwest again until September, for Jimmy and Annette's wedding.
I think I am mostly recovered from jetlag at this point, which is good, since tomorrow after dinner I am heading out to the eastside to work with CAP's Disaster Relief program as they provide services to all those who have been affected by last week's floods. For those of you not following the news, there are currently thousands of Kentuckians who are either displaced or suffering from grave water damage. In nearby Madison County, there are others who have been affected by an F-3 tornado. If you can, please keep Kentucky in your prayers right now. There has been a lot of damage and many people have lost everything. I will be out east Thursday night to Saturday night. Please pray, too, for the safety of our crews (Disaster Relief is, for now, working this Thursday through next Saturday).
Peace.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Derby Day
See that little yellow spot? That is a jockey on a horse...although I'm not sure which horse.